圆圆估计长虫牙了。

一直以来，因为我是四环素牙的受害者，所以一直都很关注屁孩儿的牙齿，以免她的牙齿长不好了以后大了怪我。从不到一岁开始我就给她刷牙，开始使用布，后来买婴儿牙刷，大一点以后买了各种的牙刷引诱她刷牙。但是她一直不配合，近来看着她的牙齿表面出来了一些黑点点，我一直都以为是不刷牙所致，结果今天要去医院拔智齿，跟同事说起来孩儿的牙齿，同事说应该不是刷不刷牙的问题，应该是牙齿有问题了。到了医院，跟医生已描述，医生说可能是虫牙，也没法补的，因为孩子小，不配合，只能多刷牙，刷彻底，不让其继续发展下去。我的妈啊，怎么会呢？我一直都觉得自己够注意的了。怎么还会给孩子弄出虫牙来了呢？心烦啊，想到这么个还算可爱的屁孩，一张嘴就一口黑黑的牙齿，我就觉得很难受。。。

快2岁9个月了，很快就要上幼儿园了。因为比较高，听姐姐说出门都没有小朋友跟她玩了。等再过2个月，9月份开学了就有多多朋友了。

理解能力不错，爸爸偷懒不愿意铺床，睡在沙发上，我去给弄好了，就让屁孩叫她爸爸到床上睡，我的原话是：让爸爸到床上来睡吧。就听到她去叫她爸爸：爸爸，妈妈铺好床了，你去睡吧。感觉理解能力还挺强！很多有趣的对话没有及时记下来，可能都要忘记了。

现在除拉牙齿，还有一点让人头痛：撒娇，尤其是睡觉前。每天中午和晚上都要来上演一出：本来上了班都很累了，中午躺在床上想休息，先耐着性子满足她的要求，包括竖着抱起来，讲故事，唱歌（中英文歌随便点，一天要听英文，一天中文），然后放下来，希望她入睡，但是希望总是一次次破灭，这个程序重复数回以后，我就会失去耐心，开始训斥乃至打屁屁（我也知道不好，但是实在太困阿），然后她就会委屈地哭起来，然后在我的安慰中入睡，中午一般从1点半折腾到2点半，晚上也会持续半个小时左右。每次我都觉得自己不应该训斥她，但是感觉是你对她越温柔，她就越得意，就越兴奋，就越不睡觉。今天上午拔了颗智齿，中午我要休息，神啊，救救我吧！

Dear son...

孩子…..

The day that you see me old and I am already not, have patience and try to understand me …

哪天你看到我日渐老去,身体也渐渐不行,请耐着性子试着了解我……

If I get dirty when eating… if I can not dress… have patience.

Remember the hours I spent teaching it to you.

如果我吃的脏兮兮,如果我不会穿衣服……

有耐性一点……

你记得我曾花多久时间教你这些事吗?

If, when I speak to you, I repeat the same things thousand and one

times… do not interrupt me… listen to me

如果,当我一再重复述说

同样的事情…不要打断我,听我说….

When you were small, I had to read to you thousand and one times the same story until you get to sleep…

When I do not want to have a shower, neither shame me nor scold me…

你小时候,我必须一遍又一遍的读着同样的故事,直到你静静睡着……..

当我不想洗澡,不要羞辱我也不要责骂我……

Remember when I had to chase you with thousand excuses I invented, in order that you wanted to bath…

When yousee my ignorance on new technologies… give me the necessary time and not look at me with your

mocking smile…

你记得小时后我曾编出多少理由,只为了哄你洗澡…..

当你看到我对新科技的无知,给我一点时间,不要挂着嘲弄的微笑看着我

I taught you how to do so many things… to eat good, to dress well… to confront life…

我曾教了你多少事情啊….如何好好的吃,好好的穿…

如何面对你的生命……

When at some moment I lose the memory or the thread of our

conversation… let me have the necessary time to remember… and if I cannot do it,

do not become nervous… as the most important thing is not my

conversation but surely to be with you and to have you listening to me…

如果交谈中我忽然失忆不知所云,给我一点时间回想…

如果我还是无能为力,

请不要紧张…..

对我而言重要的不是对话,而是能跟你在一起,和你的倾听…..

If ever I do not want to eat, do not force me. I know well when I need

to and when not.

当我不想吃东西时,不要勉强我.

我清楚知道该什么时候进食

When my tired legs do not allow me walk...

当我的腿不听使唤….

… give me your hand… the same way I did when you gave your first steps.

扶我一把….

如同我曾扶着你踏出你人生的第一步….

And when someday I say to you that I do not want to live any more…

that I want to die… do not get angry… some day you will understand…

当哪天我告诉你不想再活下去了….请不要生气….

总有一天你会了解…

Try to understand that my age is not lived but survived.

试着了解我已是风烛残年,来日可数.

Some day you will discover that, despite my mistakes, I always wanted

the best thing for you and that I tried to prepare the way for you..

有一天你会发现,

即使我有许多过错,我总是尽我所能要给你最好的…

当我靠近你时不要觉得感伤,生气或无奈

You must not feel sad, angry or impotent for seeing me near you. You

must be next to me, try to understand me and to help me as I did it when

you started living.

Help me to walk… help me to end my way with love and patience. I will

pay you by a smile and by the iMMense love I have had always for you.

你要紧挨着我,如同我当初帮着你展开人生一样的

了解我,帮我….

扶我一把,用爱跟耐心帮我走完人生…

我将用微笑和我始终不变无边无际的爱来回报你

I love you son…

我爱你孩子

Your father

你的父亲